What On My Mind....

Hey Hey,

Its been a while dear blogger, My luscious online diary lol

So you'l want to know whats been going on in my life, 

whats the news....whats the goss?

Tonight, I have to work half 11 til 4, then half 8 til 6 so i'm going to be FUCKED!!! I'm so..so..so skint its unbelievable so every penny is needed.

I'l be leaving the bonnie isles of scotland in a couple of weeks to go and see my parents and family :D booked the train down, havent booked the one back yet so thats a bit precarious.
It's weird going home to see your parents when you have your life set up here, everything i need is here, my house, my job, university, friends. I need for nothing else. So going home back to being controlled and having to give notice to where your going and what time you'l get back is going to be weird.

So, what else is going on in my head..........

I really really really want my tattoo's, ive been planning them in my head for about 2 years now and im sure i want them, i can live with them, they mean something to me and not just some random craze that people seem to think all teenagers go through, these actually have a story to tell and mean something to me so thats all that matters i guess lol.

Apart from that, i just seem really on edge at the moment, like im waiting for something incredible to happen, i spend most my days sat on my sofa watching films or sorting out the house, cleaning, bills, whatever.

I just wish something would happen, just to bring me out of this state of suspense, its like im hanging mid-air, neither falling or flying, just.......hanging

Side note, Wonderwall - Carlet - Punk Goes 90's

Good Cover!

My shoulders ache a lot recently, but its not even my bad one, its supposed to the 'good' one :S

I think....that's all....I'm not quite sure.....

Why Do People Change.....

I just don't get it, well i do, everyone changes eventually, i just wish some people wouldn't, not so soon, and not for the worst.


People that i love <3 and hold close to me doing things i disagree with, things to hurt me, things they know i wouldn't agree with!

Why can't life stay the same, why can't I always be in touch with the people I want around me?

I just wish that people would realise they mean the world to me! So PLEASE, don't put me through all this shit, just tell me straight that you'd rather never met me and I should stop caring, don't drag me along and expect me to pick up the pieces when it all goes wrong.

I

You

I Apologise Bed,

Sorry we didn't have a night together,

I have to admit,

I cheated on you,

With.....

Work, Work Work

Firstly: I'm going to apologise in advance that your about to get this massive rant, but no-one else really gives a shit so your just going to have to listen to me!

So,

Today has probably THE WORST day at work i've ever had :/

It all started this morning when my alarm went off at 6am, I could just tell today was going to suck, so il snoozed until 7 then realised i needed to go for a shower.

Got to work, it seems we are short staffed, lucky us! The customers are SO RUDE, they think there right when they are so, so, so wrong. Just because i ask you what you want, DOES NOT mean i actually give a flying fuck about your day. So just sit where i tell you and behave, dont even think about moving to another table to "make life easier" because NO, your not helping!!!

Then the dish-washer breaks, followed by the coffee machine, so you can tell by now my life is just going swell, NOT!

The only thing I could think of was coming home and forgetting about it all!

So, Rant Over :D

I'm sorry that i miss you so much,

I spoil your surprise.....

To Me,

Life is an open book,

Everyone Has A Story To Tell.

Yer, He's Cool!

Have you ever sat with yourself and thought,

Like really thought.....

Some times I sit and think, WHY?

• Why do I leave things to last minute.
• Why do I not complete things.
• Why do I not have the driving ambition that I so crave.
• Why do these thoughts come into my head when I never want them there, EVER!

I've always wanted an interesting life, I'm always chasing excitement, or am I just chasing attention. Is that It?

Do I chase attention to much, does the need to feel wanted and loved stalk me so, that, it controls me.....

I Hope One Day I Find You,

Just So I Can Let You Know,

How Much You Missed,

And How I Never Needed You.

I Guess It Starts Here.....

So, the time has come...


I've started a blog, mainly because i look like this...

Meh, it might be interesing if people read it?